After giving my life to Jesus wholeheartedly at the age of 21, I began to discover a relationship with Jesus not only as my Savior but also as my Lord. In order for Him to be Lord, I had to let Him come in and restore the broken parts of my heart which had been scarred by physical and emotional abuse.
After serving the Lord for a short time, like most girls my age, I desired to be married and have a family. It was one of my greatest desires. However, after participating in several weddings—more like 11 weddings, being maid of honor twice and many times a bridesmaid—I began to think I was being overlooked … that God was overlooking me and my desire to be married. My future husband was nowhere in sight. I even entered into a couple of romantic relationships with godly Christian men, but it wasn’t until after the second one broke up that the Lord was able to speak to my desperately broken heart: “KaLyndia, you are not ready. There are areas from your past relationships I want to bring inner healing to.”
After this, I began to understand that although I had given my life to Jesus and although He had become my everything, there were areas of my heart I had not allowed Him to touch. He began showing me there were deep wounds I had not let him heal. Wounds of rejection had left me deeply insecure and broken. It was a painful process, yet it was so beautiful at the same time. I began allowing Jesus to come in and do what only He could do. Through His word, prayer, praise and godly counsel, He healed my heart.
It was during and after this process that the Lord spoke again to my heart that I was entering a waiting season… But He said I was to “Go” while I was “Waiting.” I was to go and do everything He called me to do while I waited on Him to bring the man He chose for me to spend the rest of my life with, serve the church with, and raise my future children with. Daily He confirmed to me that I was not Overlooked but that I was Chosen. Jeremiah 1:5 says, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you and before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations.” Even though the enemy, Satan, comes to Steal, Kill and Destroy, Jesus comes to Conquer, Heal, and Restore every facet of every area of our lives.
The Lord proved Himself faithful. I was 27 when He brought Brian into my life, and we were married in August of 1993. Now we have four beautiful daughters who love Jesus and are impacting their areas of the world.
As I reflect on those 11 bridesmaid dresses, I am reminded of the faithfulness of God, how He used those dresses to bring about a healing process—a healing process needed in order to bring me to the day I was able to put on the wedding dress of my dreams and walk an aisle to make the second most important decision of my life.
Be encouraged. You are not Overlooked. You are Chosen! Chosen by Jesus who loves you deeply and intently. His word says, “I have loved you with an everlasting love…” (Jer.31:3). Let His love heal, restore and speak life into your situation today!
Blessings,
KaLyndia
Daily He confirmed to me that I was not Overlooked but that I was Chosen. Jeremiah 1:5 says, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you and before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations.” Even though the enemy, Satan, comes to Steal, Kill and Destroy, Jesus comes to Conquer, Heal, and Restore every facet of every area of our lives.